Full disclosure....I have been nervous and very uncomfortable to go through this journey of self-discovery. You never know what is going to come up or how it will affect you mentally, physically, emotionally or spiritually. I have also been very nervous to share this with anyone. I believe by writing out my truths, I will help others because it might inspire someone else to get the confidence to speak about their life experiences.
Since my last post, I was not sure which direction I should go in because I uncovered two very major things that I needed to deal with. Diving into those experiences for me was not easy, nor was it going to be easy to work through the conclusions I made. I actually have been avoiding dealing with all of it to some degree. It is primarily because I know it will be a breaking. A breaking of the old parts of me that I hold onto our of fear of what will come next. Fear is a tricky thing for sure. I have always thought of the acronyms of fear. False Evidence Appearing Real or Face Everything And Rise. I have been dealing with the false evidence for so long that I was running from what could be the truth. I could be confident. I could be strong. I could handle loss and understand that though people leave you, the memories and lessons they have left behind for you are just as important as them being there. I had to finally face my inner child, my inner teenager.
By recommitting to my spiritual practices of journaling, meditating and being more mindful of my inner voice, I started to see angel numbers all around me. I would always look at the clock at either 11:11 or 1:11. Of course, it felt good to know that my angels and guides were around me encouraging me. If you aren't familiar with the meaning of 1111 or 111, it is about new beginnings and being encouraged to continue on the path forward. These numbers also indicate abundance being around you which is all very good news. Sometimes when I have doubts about what I am doing or how I am managing my stress level, I see these numbers. They also show as a warning to not get too caught up in the current moment and feel discouraged. I think we have all heard when you are going through the toughest moments, it is because there is a breakthrough coming for you. I can admit that even with this blog that I was not sure I was going down the right path. I wasn't sure what this was going to do for me let alone if people were going to read it because maybe this won't make much of a difference. One time when I thought that I saw 1111. It reminded me of something I desired to do in college. I wanted to give the voiceless a voice. This is how I do it.
Uniquely enough, I am finally learning to use my voice properly.
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