My Inner Child Has Entered The Chat

For the record, I wasn't looking for my inner child to show up. I mean no one ever really is lol. I also didn't expect it because I remember my childhood being very good. I got through my teens and early twenties without paying any attention to any ques she might have been giving me. There a super dope thing happened at 25.

Becoming a mom was probably the most diffcult but also most exciting things I have ever done. The scary part of it all has been my inner child showing up and needing to be parented as well. Low and behold I gave birth to a most, beautiful, amazing little girl. I began to notice when she was about 2 how well she spoke and understood things. I also noticed how she would mimic anyone around her. It wasn't just the mannerisms but also the inflection in their voice and verbiage they would use. I would always say that is where I am in her because she looks nothing like me. I guess I spoke into existence my inner child coming out to need some of her own attention. I was a very bright child and my father always imparted so much wisdom into me. I used words beyond my years that to this day my family still laughs about. I loved the way I was raised because I never felt like I was ignored or put in a child's place. I decided personally while there were some things I would do differently than my parents did, I would keep an open line of communication with my child as my parents had done for me.

As my daughter got older, I noticed that she talked too much and had too much to say. She would say things that were not her words. It was clearly something she had heard from someone else and she was pretending to understand it. I started to see a lot of myself in her. It wasn't the adult me I was seeing though. I was seeing little girl Ashley who didn't always get the best course correction or who decided she would just keep doing it despite the consequences she received. I was deemed bossy as a child but was also very sensitive. My daughter is this to a tee. In learning how to love little me but also teach my inner child that I couldn't keep pretending I knew more than I did, I was having to do the same with my daughter. It's been very challenging to say the least because like I said, I wasn't looking for inner child healing.

I started this blog going back to my first love which was in my teenage years. I knew my inner teenager still had an attitude problem and needed some extra love. Now that my inner child has shown up, I recognize I need to dig deeper. There is so much behind her little smile that needs to be dressed.